i have...

the urge to blog.

today is monday, august 3rd. it is a month till school, which means i am going into grade 12. yesterday, i worked a day shift at work. i love my job. its so chill. well yeah.. i think i changed career paths again, but it still has to do with psychology. i want to become a middle years / senior years teacher, and try to become a guidance counsellor. yeah. as if summer is going by so fast. whatever.. all i do is work, eat, and sleep... and watch tv / movies.

in fact, today.. i watched dawn of the dead, saw 4 and saw 5. i'm wondering... is there gonna be a saw 6? :S. lol. it's mad trippy. but yeh. i should get to bed. i have work at 12. pc out

follow up from the last blog

choir STILL isnt over.
next week is the jazz choir camp.
intense

just when i think...

choir is over, its not.
i'm singing @ the grad convocation. :)

bio exam today..

im not ready. i only read the notes last night, and then i called venice. whoopsies. haha jk.

anyway, im totally procrastinating from getting ready. i'm reading blogs, making a blog, twittering, facebook.. etc. lol holy shit, just on social networks 24/7. LOL no life -_-"

i really hope no one asks me for a ride today... it sorta makes me mad. haha. whatever.. ill just say "no.. sorry. i have to pick up my mom after" hahaha. and yeah. now i know what tin felt like when i asked him to give me a ride. sorry bud ! haha.

well yeah.. im gonna wash my hair, wash my face, shave, and then im off to school to study. oh boy, i should eat breakfast. haha... but i have no money! well i do, but i dont wanna spend it -_-". k whatever.

pc!

procrastination!

was with renell like the whole day.
"studied" at the library; well he did. but yeah. ended up procrastinating hardcore

• library - ended up talking to people
• toys r us to find my scrabble slam! card game
• got lost on academy
• went to walmart, and bought a flash disk drive thing
• watched Up for the remainder of the day

that was my day. hahahha. t'was fun though. havent chilled with that guy in a hot one.
but yeeah. im gonna go lay on my bed.

pc !

work work work work work..

my parents + sister keep on getting mad at me cause i always get sent home early. geeze, not my fault its dead. chill your tits. and its not my fault i dont get a lot of shifts. geeze... i need more shifts after i come back from minneapolis. i think i'm gonna get a second job? i wonder if warehouse one is hiring yet. haha. but yeah.

i just hope i have enough money saved for minneapolis (yn)

school's almost over!

yaay! school's almost done for me. im so excited. all the work and shit i've done this year is too much. but now that i think about it... i've slacked a lot. especially in bio. im really excited to be finished math cause im in grade 12 applied math, and after the provincial i'll be done math! for life? for a few years? i dont know, but i'll be done!

exam schedule:
june 8 and 9 - grade 12 applied provincial exam
june 11 and 12 - grade 11 english exam
june 18 - grade 12 bio exam

o0o0o! im gonna be done bio too! im so excited. no more bio for the rest of my life! haha yaay! well yeah, since its june... its audition month! i've decided to audition for smw. i wonder.. am i doing it for fun, or am i actually gonna do it if i make it in? :S. who knows. what if i dont get into jazz choir next year -_-". gosh. thats a scary thought.. i really hope im in all choirs again next year! choir is just so fufilling. but this year was just the best. i dont think next year is going to top it off -_-". haha but yeah.. gotta make the best outta everything right?

anyway.. im writing my second last poetry commentary that's due on monday. as if we're gonna have to do a third one... which will probably be due the next day =\. i dont know. frick man. i hate english. why does english have to be such a work load? whatever -_-". it's almost all over !

summer here i come! :)

...

i dont get why people hate me so much
i havent done shitall to deserve being ganged up on.

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

the climb.. its a good song .

thoughts that are currently in my head..

• i wanna go to a cemetery with friends and provoke spirits and what not. HA or just try and contact spirits.

• you justify the saying "he's too gay to function" .
  

going crazy..

i like you a lot. :)

going out to eat with alyssa later, and going to watch angels and demons. hope its a sick movie!

sorry..

but im lazed to do a detailed chicago blog.
just look at my pictures on facebook because "a picture speaks a thousand words".
LOL cheezy!

well yeah, i have work today from 6-11. probably gonna be MAD busy.
and i have work again tomorrow 6-11. probably gonna be even more MAD busy! but oh well! time and a half !

all i've been doing is sleeping, which is great :). so yeah .. ttfn

oh! and tweet me! http://twitter.com/kevint4n

* note to self

an observation made me think that when:

a person's name is "nitm" or anything else in that category, it's a scream for attention so people will talk to them.

im just sayin' yo. haha

.. chicago blog on DELAY! haha. procrastination away we go!

CHICAGO 08-09

even though i've gone to chicago many times already, i feel like this was the best experience in the windy city ever. i feel this way because i was with friends, aka the choir and band people. spending time on the bus for 17+ hours was insane. it felt uncomfortable, but whatever, we found ways to pass the time.

my roomies : danjello, rae, jeff, and kristian were cool; not that they weren't already. haha but yeh, smashed it up. AS IF I LOST BOTH TIMES -_-". i fail. i even own the game. WTF. haha

but yeah, i'm super cashed. i'll probably recap on the whole trip tomorrow if i feel like it. when i recap, it'll be from day 1 - day 5. yeeyuuh.

pc out blogspot!

the day has arrived!

leaving for chicago in like 2 hours and 15 minutes.
im gonna have lots to blog about when i come back ;P

leaving in like 11.5 hours!

hmm, so leaving for chicago today. im so psyched. well not really. i've been there before, so yeah. haha. i'm just excited to leave high school for like a short period of time, and be in another country / city / part on the map. yeahp. i'm almost all packed. i just need my backpack. and then ill load it with homework and drinks for the trip. haha yeeyuuh! but yeah, i have to leave for school soon. ttfn! chicago!!!!!!!

oh-em-gee!

im gonna start packing tomorrow! im so excited! haha

anticipation level at a maximum

leaving for chicago in 3 days. so excited.

mad reminiscing

haha so i took my grade 7 and 8 yearbooks and started to look at them. talk about mad laughs. i was looking at the grade 8 one, and omg... "WHOOSH moments" . lol. made me reminisce HARDCORE..

remember the time...

when it was marrife's annual birthday party, and we were all at her place. either the apartment or her big ass house? well yeah, i think it was her apartment. well.. justin villegas gives her a birthday card w/ some money in it, and i went to go read it and it was something like "blah blah blah you're another year older blah blah blah WHOOSH" hahahahaha! and i was so retarded like it was like so ridculous. i took that word and mad OA-ed it and was like sounding like a constipated yoshi saying.. "blah blah blah WHOOOOOSH". haha. and yeah. mad laughs that evening. and thanks to justin's mom's birthday card, marrife's annual birthday party, and my retarded-ness.. it lead to the asian invasion creation of WHOOSH.

back in the day...

imagine if we all stuck together... like amvc :P. haha.. except we would be like mws. HAHAHA jk. ew mad ew. lol ... no offence amvc ;P. but yeah. hmmm.. makes me miss the past a bit. i miss them sleep overs and those kareoke lunch hours after shops.

i dont understand why me and him arent friends anymore... our friendship just vanished into thin air one day.

but yeah ...

i think one day.. just one day, out of our busy high school and working lives... have a whoosh reunion at ariel's house for mad old times sake. LOL. no drama, no beef, just good times like before. maybe when we graduate? and nikka can come from alberta, or just have a mad long cam session with her. lol. but yeah... i dont know where this is heading..

this was just a mad reminiscing moment of mine. im lame i know. haha but yeah. imma go! i have chamber in the morns. pc!

OH BTW ...
i'm sincerely sorry about anything that is my fault. if you dislike me for whatever reasone, go on disliking me if you want .. its just me being paranoid. haha. but yeah.. live, laugh, and learn ^_^ .
wtf.. i dont think i make sense -_-". but yehhh ... ttfn!

judge me if you want, but...

i think the song "the climb" by miley cyrus is a really good song.
the message is just .. wow. lol.

my bods is so itchy !

i just watched one movie, which was hancock. lol.. im so lazy

but yeah, i just got out of the shower and my body is so itchy! its like theres bugs in my body! did i like take meth or something? haha jk. omg, i actually did laundry. haha. well thats cause my dog puked on my bed for the 5th time or something, and i decided to do something about it. LOL. yeah thats right.. i slept on dry puke for like.. a couple of weeks =|. HAHAHA . oh god, im filthy. lol. but yeah . its in the dryer right now.

i'm so excited that i FINALLY have a freaking job! but it sucks that i have to book off the most of may! whatever, they're all legit reasons.. except for may 1st ;) . LOL. i'm probably gonna be the guy who takes tickets and cleans the floors . womp womp! i wanna do concession. it seems so much fun. whatever. tuesday and thursday is just orientation and training! im sooooooooo excited! like ovs excites! HAHAHA. havent said that in a while!

oh yeah, i also had to flip my matress to the other side cause the puke stains, which is all dog bile, just made it look like i piss my bed. HA -_-". eww. yeah . well i finally read marley and me after like 21314234 years. but i'm only past half way. why the hell do i have so much to say? haha. well yeah.. it's almost family guy and stewie's gonna get buff. im so excited to watch it. its gonna be hilarious. LOL. well yeah.. ttfn!

movie list of the day

so i'm hopefully gonna watch 4 movies today which are :

• hancock
• stepbrothers
• the hulk
• tropic thunder

respectively. however, i dont think i'm gonna be able to finish cause i gotta watch the new shows on animation domination? haha unless i just download them when they become available. hmm.. i dont know. lol but yeah. i must start watching. pc !

i'm so excited!

movie movie mooovies

i said i was gonna watch 4 movies today.. but i watched 3 and a half. lol! i couldn't really finish geisha. it's like once you watched that movie once AND read the book, you cant watch the movie again. am i right? lol! but yeah ...

he's just not that into you was alright. i found it all trippy how everyone was connected somehow. reminded me of what ace burpee said yesterday or the day before. lol. and it sorta just gave the message of how girl's go crazy over every guy, but guys dont. unless the guy finds that one exception, or it's just yeknoow.. the rule. hahah

the uninvited was trippy shit! it was like hide and seek all over again. lol! it gave me chills and jumps. haha. oh i love how scary movies can get me scared just by the MUSIC LOL!. but yeah, that girl was a psycho bitch.. and she was dumb. however, trippy how she incorporated mildred's story into her own life, and misinterpreted Rachel's presence. WOOOOW. t'was trippiest movie EVER.

bride wars was hilarious and cute. lol. they way they got back at each other was just so funny. lol. but it's stupid how their 26 or so year friendship got all ruined just cause of a wedding. what's the big fuss about a wedding? sure it's great to get married, but girls make it seem like they'll die if they dont get married. lol. that doesnt make sense, but whatever! haha. lol.. and then the ending.. is it gonna be "prenatal wars" ?? LOL. dun dun dunnn.. miscarriage? yeah, i probably totally vaguely killed the movie for those who read this and haven't watch this film. but go watch it anyway. just cause you know what happens doesn't mean you can't watch it? doesnt make sense once again -_-".

yeeeeah .. mini movie reviews? haha. now i am waiting for harper's island episode number 3 to download. it's gonna take forever since there are no seeders! boo you whore! yeeeeeah. holy shit its 8 o clock, and i havent eaten dinner yet.. im not even hungry though. haha whatever. ttfn!

oh god, my foot's asleep -_-"

i have no life at all.

it's friday, and i'm staying home for the billionth friday, or should i say weekend, in a row. lol. that sentence had some good sentence structure. haha. but yeah. the reason why i don't go out is cause my selected friends are busy with cotillion or work. bunk sauce for me! whatever . we'll chill ... sooner or later.

but yeah, i'm just gonna watch movies. and here is my movie list :

• he's just not that into you
• the uninvited
• bride wars
• memoirs of a geisha

lets see if i can finish this all today, friday April 24th.

yeah...
oh and btw, i skipped english yesterday. i wasn't in dire need to skip, but it was a work period, and i wouldn't of done shitall anyway. however, THAT IS THE LAST TIME IM GOING TO SKIP ALL YEAR (yn). let's just hope that i'll stick to that promise. lol

hmm

... it seems like when a person is dying young, they seem to know everything there is to life.
like the girl from sisterhood of the traveling pants.

haha yeah.. i dont know what else to say. lol

tuesday, april 21

this was my day

• chamber choir @ 730. voice is still bleh
• thanks for the ride faith! you're a life saver!
  
• grade 12 math. same ol' same ol'.

skipped the rest of the day.
i've been doing this a lot lately.
but i went to the doctors, got my prescription, and got a doctor's note.
yay for amoxicillin! i'm feeling better already. haha

but yeah, i cannot skip a whole day anymore! unless i'm in dire need. haha
hmm.. well i'm tired, but i didnt do shitall today. haha

jazz choir tomorrow morning! hope we use mics again ! :)

yeah.

heroes is the shit! especially Ali Larter. She's fucking HOT
to bad her characters died.. like twice. haha

it's monday, the dreadful monday.

this monday wasn't as bad. it wasn't because i got to sleep in until 9 AM and go to school just in time for second period. However, i hate how second period just drags on. lol. my voice is still being gay. i hate it. it's so blah. i hate how i can't sing how i normally sing. i'm not gonna take medicine today, so i can go to the doctor's and get antibiotics. haha i sound like a drug addict -_-". but yeah, i just need those pills! haha. well yeah, i had choir at lunch. third period was english, just read. omg! my english teacher made me read, and the person had a lot of lines. my voice sounded so ugly! and then had bio. forgot to do the homework on the weekend. so i finished it in class.

i always feel like doing nothing everytime i get home -_-'. haha. but yeah w/e.
it's almost chicago! im so stoked. haha. well i gotta show my mama something for choir. and then yeah.

oh ! follow me on twitter yo! http://www.twitter.com/kevint4n.

pc !

new layout!

i was bored, so i decided to do a new layout. haha. the bear reminds me of twitch from so you think you can dance. well yeah. my throat seems like it got 30% better. so yeah, that's good. i should really do my english homework. i'm so lazy right now. tomorrow's sunday =(. weekends are too short. i hope i'm better by tuesday. i hate being sick.

numero otso.

i liked jazz choir this morning, even though i wasnt secure on my notes. i was the only baritone this morning -_-". plus i couldn't really sing because i had a sore throat, and my voice dropped an octave =|. but yeah anyway, i like singing with mics :). my mic is number 8.. otso otso. haha t'was fun. after had math class. just did notes. i didnt really enjoy math today. personal finance is such a hassle, but its like things you deal with in real life. afterwards, had gym. the classes merge. yay, sabrina! talked about anxiety and depression and stuff. haha. at lunch, just chilled w/ sabrina. then had bio.. didnt really do anything. went home for last period cause i didnt wanna go to english, and i felt horrible. thank god it's the weekend. i'm gonna watch the first epsiode of harper's island and the haunting of molly hartley now. haha ttfn

wednesday.

i dont know where these episodes are coming from ...
but anyway, here is how my day went.

• jazz choir in the morning. i love singing
• math; started new unit
• in gym we took a walk then got dismissed
• had choir at lunch
• did work in bio.. it was so quiet in class today
• i got bitched at in english -_-". whatever. s'all good

i had an interview @ garden city theatre. it went pretty well. i'm waiting for the call whether i got hired or not. i got a call a few minutes ago, thinking it was them, but it was cinema city. haha. so i have an interview tomorrow. i need a job ! hopefully i'll get a call tonight or tomorrow morning.. i'm getting so impatient here. and oh my oh my, i took a nap -_-". i need to stop taking naps. effs up my sleeping habits. but it couldn't be helped cause i took cough medicine that makes me super drowzy. eh.. yeah. so as i'm waiting for the call, i bid you adieu.

haha

i took a nap -_-". from 630? to 11.
oh boy. i am not going back to sleep at all. damn hunger, why must you deceive me and my sleep?
i think im gonna try and get a bbstorm. get a crazy bundle, and fill the phone with apps :)
yeah. im gonna lay on my bed till i sleep now. bye!

oh high school !

• 730 : chamber choir
• then had english midterm. i failed. essay was to short and vague
• math test second period. finished it so early. i probably did bad too
• lunch, stayed in the choir room cause i was too lazy to get off the chair
• third period, just read marley & me. the book is just to cute
• fourth period. bio w/ dixon = slack slack slack. i'm gonna fail the exam.
• i was wrong. i wasnt peachy keen today.
• i wanna graduate already. as if im only in grade 11.
• that person who told me that grade 11 is the year you have drama... i apologize for not believing you. however, the drama is all done, i hope. but i still got drama.
  
• job interview tomorrow.. i desperately need that job.
• i jonzed. the ulam of the night is spaghetti. i put rice on my plate. JONZE !
• yeah. t'was my day.
  

oh.. i think im going through a disney star phase. weird

before i attempt to sleep...

i dont see a point in my sleeping for a long period of time anymore.
i dont see a point in me just being.
i'm getting so bipolar its not a fun thing to be.
i feel theres a mind block in my mind.
i hope its a block that blocks my mutant power from causing total chaos to those i loathe.



I'M WEIRD.

i want high school to be over.
i have one more year left.
i cant stand high school. everyone there just bugs the living hell out of me
i hate people.
HOWEVER (=\),
i love my close friends..
alan, nica, belle.. i love you three. really.
i also love navdeep and sabrina
life is so short.
i need a job to occupy myself.
God, make me witness a miracle from You. i need to start believing in You, and start having a little faith.

I'M WEIRD x 2

...or maybe i'm just depressed.
i hate people.
i am a ___________ .. that word used to describe people who have a strong dislike for other people.

i just dont care anymore.

sigh of relief .
NOT
i have chamber tomorrow morning. i should get to sleep
i need meds yo . HA jk

i am weird x 3

oh and i miss drawing and colouring and expressing myself

probably by tomorrow, i will be peachy keen again

setting up sunday.

i got a job interview for wednesday. i REALLY hope i get the job. im super desperate. i dont think i'd be able to do strike anymore =\. daaaaaaaaaamn. haha whatever. i'd rather work.

pleeeeeease (insert diety here) let me get this job!

continued

i finished geisha today. haha yay.
i dont think im gonna re-read twilight. to lazy.
therefore, i am going to start marley and me ! tomorrow!
i wanna watch hannah montanna the movie 8-). haha
i missed flight 29 down -_-" . i like that show
i really want that job that i mentioned earlier..

pros: free movies, not busy, mad experience, its close to home
cons: cleaning, long shifts, my laziness. haha

most likely, im not going to get the job because i suck at interviews.

"sorry honey, it's thursday"

today was uneventful.
i woke up @ 630 and got to school at 7.
did the whole chamber choir thing from 730 to 845.
i started to feel really sick to my stomach;
so i went home.
i took a nap from 9 to 2.
i took another nap from 5-530.
i watched "yes man!" twas a pretty good movie.
my cousin's 18 now. holy shit. it seems like yesterday we were only 5 and 6 =|.
im 18 next year. WOW. w/e. i wanna grow up. haha. but i just want time to go slow in the process
yeah. i am going to watch some good old late night television.
goodnight.

i shouldst be sleeping for i'st haveth choral in the peaketh of dawn

the path to my future is just straight ahead

yeah. i really should be sleeping now. spring break effed up my sleeping habits.
whatever. feeling tired.. feels good.. sometimes. haha

idk. i got to reminscing.
how in grade 8 and 9, i had the greatest friends someone could ask for;
but now, most of them are gone. i hardly talk to anyone anymore. im so ghost?
i remember how i'd use to go out every friday, sleep over at somebody's house every weekend. now im just stuck at home all the time.
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how it was so easy to go through the day, and not worry about homework. when time went by so slow. but now, its going by so fast. i remember as though i was 13 and in grade 8 as if it were yesterday. as of today i'm 16 turning 17, and in grade 11. i'm in grade 12 in 5 months. graduating in a year and 3 months. going to university in a year and a half. half of me is excited for the new experiences, the other half is scared. scared to realize i've taken my childhood and teenage life for granted... i... i just want time to slow down, especially in the summer. next thing i know, when i wake up tomorrow, i'm 24 pursuing my bachelor of arts in psychology .. the next day i'm 28.. standing on the stage getting my phD for psychology, with wife and baby watching me. i'd better knock on wood because i dont wanna jinx it.

yeah . just a rant. i feel like im still 12.. but im 16, almost 17. CHILL OUT father time. haha
i dont know. i dont make sense at all. lol!

omg

i have this song in my head. i have the melody and the piano rhythms in my head.. but i dont know what the freakin' title is !

nvm.. i found it
white houses - vanessa carlton. hahaha!

i keep thinkings its sunday today -_-"

• im bored.
• im almost done my commentary.
• i actually read geisha today :).
• i hate apmr4s. no matter what my mark is im not going to upgrade. i think -_-"
• im never going to eat pizza ever again. EVER
• but i ate it for breakfast -_-".
• well after that.. im never going to eat it again
• theres a flu epidemic in my house
• i hope i dont catch it
• 3-5 more sentences for my commentary! i can do it! -_-"
• i miss singing in choir
• dance isnt interesting to me anymore
• blah blah blah. back to my commentary.
  

i'm gonna live forever .

i'm so excited. september 25th 2009 :)
"remember my name. fame! i'm gonna live forever. im gonna learn how to fly. high!"

spring break.. yeah right !

last year, it was decent outside. just a bit chilly, but no snow at all. this year however, turned out to be another term of winter. wtf is this ?! grr.. i just hope that by the next two weeks it'll be gone. the weather is going crazy.

i hate writing. i'm doing a commentary for english right now, and i just dont know how to write one -_-". its giving me mad writer's block. i hate this. i tried taking a break and watch x men origins : wolverine, but its just the unfinished copy of the movie. therefore, you can see the green screen, ropes, and all that stuff. grr.

im gonna attempt to write one more paragraph and then continue on either later or tomorrow. haha. oh. and i havent read geisha in two days =(. haha. i should.. but im lazy -_-"

oh homework! woe is it, woe is it.

i should start my homework.

but to bad i dont get statistics
to bad im lazy to start my english commentary
and to bad im lazy to do shitall for bio

will power is what i need -_-"

ill rue the day when it comes to the bio exam. HAHA.
"rue the day" oh how i adore iCarly. haha

countdowns!

37 days until chicago
51 more days until birthday

lol. yeah thats it. im to lazy to figure out how many days until harry potter 6. -_-"

my dogs are special with a capital R

my dog snickers is scared to go outside. its like he thinks theres a zombie epidemic, so he refuses to go outside unless he is carried out. he is such a bitch; no pun intended. also, he is scared of my other dog enzo. snickers is just scared of everything -_-".

enzo is special with a capital R because he doesnt realize that snickers doesnt like him. nevertheless, he starts rough-housing with snickers and snickers pulls mad bitch fit. idk. my dogs are fucking weird. they're like marley in ways.

aww, i love that movie. marley & me. watch it, you'll cry. you really will. haha. if you dont, you're heartless.

oh. i was chewing gum like 10 minutes ago; and i started to cough. the piece of gum left my mouth and it went into snickers' hair. he bit me hard, and i thought my finger was gonna be bleeding everywhere. good thing i got my pillow and hit him. yeah.. so i got scissors and cut it out. as if i got gum in my dog's hair -_-".

so ..

i was watching american dad. and then one girl said "that's totes inappropes" meaning, "thats totally inappropriate". i was like "OMG, abbrevs is nation wide!". then i youtubed "abbrevs" and came upon this vid. it was mad annoying. hahaha.

pokemon ftw!

everytime theres a break and what not, i start playing pokemon. i've played frequently for like five minutes everyday, but now i play for like 5 hours. i am such a nerd. -_-"

satuuuurday

its saturday today. i have plans to go out with belle and nica, but nica is tired from work and yeah. i hope its still a go! i need to buy jeans and marley & me! so yeah. haha.

oh and its spring break! yay! time to catch up on some z's. hmm. i wish telesolutions was a decent place to work at. i fucking hate it there. i only showed up for 1 shift, and im never going back =|. haha. yeah. so, i shall look for another job. i hope after today i can save my money for chicago! i need at least 300 dollars!

i guess this is all i have to say -_-". haha. bye

OMG

i bought Marley & Me by John Grogan :D. i bought the 14.95+ tax instead cause it felt nice on my hands, and it didnt stink like the 8.99+tax one. although, the cheaper one had PICTURES in it, and yeah ;'(. OH WELL. I have the book now. im so excited to finish geisha and start marley & me. oh im sucha nerd -_-". fml. lol jk

oh and i bought jeans. yay =).

i like to read

whenever i have time to myself, i enjoy reading.

to read list!

• memoirs of a geisha by arthur golden (im like 1/8th done!)
  
• marley and me by john grogan
  
• life of pi by yann martel
  
• ps i love you by cecilia ahern
  
• nick and norah's infinte playlist by rachel cohn and david levithan
• a jodi picoult book
• a series of unfortunate events by lemony snicket
  

to re-read list!

• twilight (again and again and again and again and again!)
• new moon
  
• eclipse (again and again and again!)
• breaking dawn (again and again and again and again!)
• harry potter & the goblet of fire
  
• harry potter & the half blood prince
• harry potter & the deathly hallows

im weird, but lately, i can only read books that are in a first person perspective. UNLESS i know the characters pretty well. I tried re-reading silverwing, and i just couldnt get past the first chapter because it was bugging me that there was no narrator. Lol. gosh -_-"

one saturday morning ...

everytime i'm about to wake up, i think about the day and stuff that can happen. it's quite odd. and my dreams are starting to get weird. they're involving people with chamber choir. first pauline's death and now ej's pregnancy. weirdest dreams, and obviously they are not going to happen. * knock on wood *. i wonder who's next?

hmm. yeah, since i'm in desperate need of a job and cash, i am resorting to TELESOLUTIONS -_-". they better hire me 8-). HAHA. cause when im confident about something it just goes the other direction.

im eagerly awaiting until we leave for chicago. just need a few days away from winnipeg. navy pier <3 <3 <3. oh, and im selling belgian chocolate for like 3 dollars. there's different kinds to choose from. if you want chocolate, just ask :).

recap of yesterday

• slept in cause i had a spare. felt sooo0o0o good.
• wrote the notes in math that i missed from the two days. cumalitive next week =|
• got dismissed from math early, so went to the caff to eat and then went to the library
• at lunch, chilled with navdeep and the others.
  
• in english just did vocab and discussion. english is getting boring
• and in bio, did nothing really. haha

also, yesterday was like "talk to people i havent talked to in a while day". quite weird. i never feel like talking to anyone anymore. i feel like going ghost for good most of the time. haha. but whatever. just gotta live life how it is and look forward to the future. i wanna graduate already. i wanna grow up already. but.. i still have to wait and enjoy the rest of my childhood.

its hump daaaaay.

skipped the whole day for the career symposium. yay.. free stuff! haha. i'm pretty sure i want to be a psychologist now. oh my goodness, the people just talking to me... very uncomfortable. yeeah. lol. well yeah. i finished all my homework that's due tomorrow. i need a new book to read, because i finished caucasia yesterday. good book! i like it! go read it! haha. well yeah. i'm gonna go find something to do. nothing really to blog about. haha. pccccc

fuck my academic life!

"death by stress"

I really dislike how things work for me.
For example:

I work hard = I do poorly
I don't work at all = I do great

WTF IS THIS?
yeah .. i got my essay back today, and i did HORRIBLE on it. Even though I passed, I still feel I could've done better. I got a 22.5/35. I almost failed my essay portion, which was 2.5 marks. I feel so stupid, cause everyone else got 30+. WELLLLLLL... i guess i'm gonna have to do better next time. BUT the next essay is on freaking frankenstein and i dont know what i'm going to do about that cause yeah.. i just dont see an essay coming from me from that book. I wish i was just a genius writer w/ proper writing etiquette.

GR WHATEVER -__-" . all i have to do is pass the course.

OH.. and phylius? HAHAHAH . omg.. that was so stupid. yeah anyway...

I'm excited for the career symposium tomorrow. But im not excited for missing class. eghh!

wtfbbqcoptercake!

... fuck my academic life!

... also, mad over reaction.

... whatever, venting through a blog is peaceful :)

its a monday...

I had a spare first thing, so I decided to sleep in. Woke up at like 920, and got ready. As soon as I get to school the bell rings for the next period.

In Math, we went over the review and started vectors. I'm pretty much fucked on this vectors unit because I'm missing two days of it. Yeah, so then before the lunch bell rings SCHOOL GOT CUT! yaay! that is due to the main water breakage thingy.

So yeah, just waited for my sister to pick me up. Took a damn long time. Took the whole lunch hour. Haha. Hmm.. so yeah. Went to garden city and got food. omg. I feel fat. I'm so lazy to like jog today or anything. But yeah, I will! I will! I will! Hopefully that is. I feel like reading my book, cause I'm almost done! Just 100+ more pages!

Yeah. I'm pretty tired, but i did shitall today. Wtf is this? yeeah.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFjuTsJCv5o
WATCH THAT! It's the most sick piano cover of gentlemen don't. It's covered by Aj Rafael, who is coming to winnipeg on May 15th! I don't think I can go though. MUST SAVE FOR CHICAGO! But yeah, watch it! It's so good. Music makes me happy! Especially this cover =).

hmmm. I think I have a whole new will power. I'm not spending money anymore, I'm starting to exercise, and I'm doing homework.

hmm.. on a whole other topic.. have you noticed that kids (from ages like 7-13) wanna be so old, so they have sex and do drugs and alcohol? yet.. people my age (15-18) just wanna be young again? I hate kids these days. Just wasting their childhood that they only live once. Fuckin' kids. Stay in school and be clean.

LOL . totally irrelevant. But yeah, i'm going to read my book, Caucasia, now. Tata and pc.

doo wop ..

Last week was totally busy for me. This week is going to be busy for me too. Last week I missed Bio and English twice, because of choir. Singing is really making me exhausted. It's not easy as it looks. It takes a lot outta ya. Yeeah. Oh well.. it pays off, cause we got gold for both our auditioned classes =). All that is left is concert choir. Hmm, so this week I am missing a full day on Wednesday cause of the career symposium thing. I'm hyped for that, cause of the psychology presentation. Haha. I'm also gonna go to the Interior Designing one and maybe ... uhm, I don't know. Lol. We need to go to a minimum of three. But i just wanna get free stuff from the tables! hahha. and then on thursday its music fest.. the last one of the year. Yay. NEW MUSIC IN CHAMBER AND JAZZ ! Lol. yeeah. Idk. I've been reading and doing homework all weekend. I missed the social yesterday cause I was lazy and yeah. Oh. And I started to eat less and go on my treadmill. I think i'm like losing ... haha a pound or so. Haha. Maybe not. But yeah. I needa lose weight by May!! hahaha yaay. omg. May is going to be a busy month. Well.. i guess this is all i need to blab about . pcccc

to do list for the weekend

- finish Medea essay

- read frankenstein 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
- finish math homework
- read caucasia
- do "not hand in" bio worksheets or at least study !

its saturday, 1117 pm. tomorrow is sunday. omgs.

today was eventful

- this morning had jazz and chamber rehearsal with a special guest
- i really like how we're not so mezzo-boring in jazz anymore ;) . hahaha
- after the practice.. we chilled at school for like.. 2 more hours. talk about weird. chilling at school on a day off. lol.
- totally worth it though. jamming with the choir. old school chamber choir vs. new people. lol old school chamber choir = pwnage . lol 8-). aww and we were all in grade 9 choir.
- after that, went to kim's house w/ annalyn. she left and alan came. hahah alan's funny.
- after kim's went to belle's. haha, love chilling with them! its just so care free. lol
- then yeeah.. left at 6. my bus came first.. ALAN FREAKING LAST HITTED ME! that bitch! haha
- well im tired..
- tomorrow is a day full of homework. catchup up in math + do new stuff in math, read chapters 3-10 in frankenstein, and rough copy of Medea essay.
- i dont think im gonna go to paige's first birthday party after all. i just have so much to do -__-" . i wanted to eat! hahaha. but idk. i guess its good if i dont go so then i wont eat a lot and i could start working out on sunday! hmm. idk. lol.

chicago here i come!

Oh chicago here i come baby! Chicago for the vpa tour is a go! I'm so excited! a cultural experience away from home. and just bonding with the choir. yaay! hahaha. navy pier.. i cannot wait to feel the wind flowing through my hair just watching the lake. HAHAHA. yeeh. im excited yo!

i miss the carefree days.

oh yes, yes i do.

i need to find an emergency escape.

i wonder...

what goes on in a composers head? very intriguing question i must say. i wish i knew how to play the piano :(. anyway!

my day :

this morning, chamber choir has got to be the worst i've sounded all year. i was totally off on my notes and everything. i hated it. and like my other b-tones were off too.. wtf is this epidemic?! haha

in math, had a test. i actually took my time and went through it a couple of times. im really depending on getting a good ass mark in this class so that i dont have to upgrade my mark.

just chilled in the library for spare

had choir at lunch. zomgs.. tone deafness is so ugly

just sat and did riddles in bio. parbinder finally got the ball one! hahahah

did quiz and vocab in english. what a bore.. but yeah. i like english =|. hahah

im so tired. there isnt school on friday, BUT i have to make it in for 745 am for jazz choir rehearsal. booo! well i'm gonna do essay prep and read my AR book. pc!

my future

psychology. my career path. it's final

grade 12! oh grade 12 applications are so fun to think about cause its the last year and all. i cannot wait until next semester. i should've taken grade 11 english first sem and grade 12 second sem! i really like english since i like using big words and stuff. even though i dont even know what the hell im saying half the time. LMAO -_-". but yeah. i've totally finalized on what i'm going to take.

core compulsory credits
ENGL 4S
ENTS 4S
PHER4F

optional credits
CHOR4S
WOIR4S
PSYY4G
CHEY4G
JACY2 or 3G?

JADY3G = a no.
smw's to intense now.

oh that G makes me cringe. lol whatever. its not a course i could use for admissions to university =|. whatever. i over think my future a lot. why oh why?! whatever. and i decided what my career is going to be. im gonna aim to major in psychology and minor in philosphy or classics or anthropology. dont need science in mah life! yeye! haha well i have chamber choir tomorrow morning. how i love to sing :)

if i dont go to europe...

i was watching legally blonde today and it got me excited about going into university

oh, how the contrast it is of high school. then again, its harvard law and im going to university of winnipeg.. in 2 freaking years. GAAAH. why am i so impatient and wanting time to go so fast? i wish i had a life. but sadly i do not

if i dont go to europe...
ill buy a macbook
ill buy a blackberry (if i do not have one already)
ill use the extra money for tuition fees

i feel like europe isnt a priority to me anymore.
i really wanna go.. but like i have opportunities to go in the future right?
but i do have a plan to travel ... after getting my BA honours degree of psychology.
ill go to australia by myself for 2-3 weeks . hopefully!

im making nonsense with my ideal future and plans.
i feel stupid now. im gonna watch futurama.
bye

saturday.

today is a bunk day.
i woke up at 9 am -_-"
i wanted it to be 12 pm
i want my license.
i think im gonna go take driving lessons again soon
i need a job too
omfg .
i need a lot of things, but want more things. -_-"
i wish i could photoshop like crazy. but i cannot
i wanna photograph random objects.
speaking of photography.. i considered about being a photographer.
NO NO NO
child psychologist is what ill pursue to be. i hope its a final decision :|
yeah. im thinking about my future again. i hate iiiit. but its fun. =\
yeah. im bored. bye

my future is a big predicament...

i wish i could see into the future. i wish i could see a bunch of the foreshadows of mah life.
grrrr...

so often i plan my future.
honestly... like first i wanted to be a zoologist
then i wanted to own my own business
then i wanted to be a journalist
then i wanted to be a teacher
then i wanted to be a veterinarian
NOW i wanna be a child psychologist

with that being said, i have my grade 12 courses that i have to think about.
my ideal schedule for grade 12 is this. to have classes in the morning and spares in the afternoon. therefore, i could go to school in the morning for choir, go to class, go to choir at lunch, and then go home or work if i have a job. i got my grade 12 application today. it was pretty exciting cause like now i'm planning on the courses im going to take. luckily with being in extra curricular courses (choir, dance, theater) i have extra credits. this year i've taken up free slots for grade 12 subjects (bio and math). thank goodness those courses will be done and over with. im a bit iffy with taking grade 12 chemistry next year because :
1) grade 11 chemistry was tough enough
2) i do not want carrington again. i want dinisio, BUT with switching teachers things will become so confusing
3) i feel that i do not need it since i wanna be a child psychologist :\

OMGWTFBBQZORS . what am i to doooooooo?

i have a feeling that my schedule next year is gonna be all whack and not fluid like i want it to be. woe is me! haha jk. i dont even know what that line fully means :|.

with my application ... these are the courses that im WILLING to take:

Grade 12 enlgish
Grade 12 english transactional focus
World issues
Psychology
Grade 12 gym
and Choir

i really hope that in june.. ill get to see my guidance counsellor and fix up my schedule. but THEN i hope when it comes the end of august... i wont have SHITTY ass teachers that i dont like.

omgwtfbbqcakecopterzors. -__-"

...

im becoming so exhausted. i need a getaway.

oh hump day.

today is hump day. in other words wednesday. i cannot wait until this week is over.

my day:
-i had jazz choir this morning. singing is fun.
-grade 12 applied math seems so simple, yet so difficult. good thing i have 2 more semesters in my high school career in which i could upgrade my mark
-gym was boring. sitting there and talking about stuff. but the people in my gym class are f.u.n. lol
-didnt have choir at lunch. it took me like fricken 15 minutes to get my lunch. a cream of mushroom soup and a roast beef sandwhich. the cafe is in need of two lines. demolish the current cafe now to make a new working one... in the summer! make it like dmci's. haha
-did work in bio. it was so quiet. very awkward.
-in english we finished medea the movie. and then did a test. i used a lot of big words in that test. i probably failed it. "oh woooe is me". i used that line at least like 5 times today.

current thoughts going into my head:
*cricket *cricket *cricket.

lol. i should be doing my homework actually. so ill end this here. bye

music just is.

when in doubt what do i do? i listen to sweet music to calm me down.
what do i listen to? i pretty much listen to secondhand serenade, mcfly, mayday parade, or meg&dia depending on my mood.

music is the greatest remedy in my life.
its especially the greatest remedy cause i could sing.
singing in an ensemble at school is my life... for now.
making sweet chords with just our voices just makes me mellow.
i love music. music is life. music is me.

it's just to bad that when im older, ill only have music to listen to.
but either way, music is my life.

i've got jazz choir tomorrow morning @ 7:30 in the am. pretty early,
but im pretty committed cause i enjoy singing so much. yessirr.
i have to hit the hay. pc out! and good night!