to do list for the weekend

- finish Medea essay

- read frankenstein 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
- finish math homework
- read caucasia
- do "not hand in" bio worksheets or at least study !

its saturday, 1117 pm. tomorrow is sunday. omgs.

today was eventful

- this morning had jazz and chamber rehearsal with a special guest
- i really like how we're not so mezzo-boring in jazz anymore ;) . hahaha
- after the practice.. we chilled at school for like.. 2 more hours. talk about weird. chilling at school on a day off. lol.
- totally worth it though. jamming with the choir. old school chamber choir vs. new people. lol old school chamber choir = pwnage . lol 8-). aww and we were all in grade 9 choir.
- after that, went to kim's house w/ annalyn. she left and alan came. hahah alan's funny.
- after kim's went to belle's. haha, love chilling with them! its just so care free. lol
- then yeeah.. left at 6. my bus came first.. ALAN FREAKING LAST HITTED ME! that bitch! haha
- well im tired..
- tomorrow is a day full of homework. catchup up in math + do new stuff in math, read chapters 3-10 in frankenstein, and rough copy of Medea essay.
- i dont think im gonna go to paige's first birthday party after all. i just have so much to do -__-" . i wanted to eat! hahaha. but idk. i guess its good if i dont go so then i wont eat a lot and i could start working out on sunday! hmm. idk. lol.

chicago here i come!

Oh chicago here i come baby! Chicago for the vpa tour is a go! I'm so excited! a cultural experience away from home. and just bonding with the choir. yaay! hahaha. navy pier.. i cannot wait to feel the wind flowing through my hair just watching the lake. HAHAHA. yeeh. im excited yo!

i miss the carefree days.

oh yes, yes i do.

i need to find an emergency escape.

i wonder...

what goes on in a composers head? very intriguing question i must say. i wish i knew how to play the piano :(. anyway!

my day :

this morning, chamber choir has got to be the worst i've sounded all year. i was totally off on my notes and everything. i hated it. and like my other b-tones were off too.. wtf is this epidemic?! haha

in math, had a test. i actually took my time and went through it a couple of times. im really depending on getting a good ass mark in this class so that i dont have to upgrade my mark.

just chilled in the library for spare

had choir at lunch. zomgs.. tone deafness is so ugly

just sat and did riddles in bio. parbinder finally got the ball one! hahahah

did quiz and vocab in english. what a bore.. but yeah. i like english =|. hahah

im so tired. there isnt school on friday, BUT i have to make it in for 745 am for jazz choir rehearsal. booo! well i'm gonna do essay prep and read my AR book. pc!

my future

psychology. my career path. it's final

grade 12! oh grade 12 applications are so fun to think about cause its the last year and all. i cannot wait until next semester. i should've taken grade 11 english first sem and grade 12 second sem! i really like english since i like using big words and stuff. even though i dont even know what the hell im saying half the time. LMAO -_-". but yeah. i've totally finalized on what i'm going to take.

core compulsory credits
ENGL 4S
ENTS 4S
PHER4F

optional credits
CHOR4S
WOIR4S
PSYY4G
CHEY4G
JACY2 or 3G?

JADY3G = a no.
smw's to intense now.

oh that G makes me cringe. lol whatever. its not a course i could use for admissions to university =|. whatever. i over think my future a lot. why oh why?! whatever. and i decided what my career is going to be. im gonna aim to major in psychology and minor in philosphy or classics or anthropology. dont need science in mah life! yeye! haha well i have chamber choir tomorrow morning. how i love to sing :)

if i dont go to europe...

i was watching legally blonde today and it got me excited about going into university

oh, how the contrast it is of high school. then again, its harvard law and im going to university of winnipeg.. in 2 freaking years. GAAAH. why am i so impatient and wanting time to go so fast? i wish i had a life. but sadly i do not

if i dont go to europe...
ill buy a macbook
ill buy a blackberry (if i do not have one already)
ill use the extra money for tuition fees

i feel like europe isnt a priority to me anymore.
i really wanna go.. but like i have opportunities to go in the future right?
but i do have a plan to travel ... after getting my BA honours degree of psychology.
ill go to australia by myself for 2-3 weeks . hopefully!

im making nonsense with my ideal future and plans.
i feel stupid now. im gonna watch futurama.
bye

saturday.

today is a bunk day.
i woke up at 9 am -_-"
i wanted it to be 12 pm
i want my license.
i think im gonna go take driving lessons again soon
i need a job too
omfg .
i need a lot of things, but want more things. -_-"
i wish i could photoshop like crazy. but i cannot
i wanna photograph random objects.
speaking of photography.. i considered about being a photographer.
NO NO NO
child psychologist is what ill pursue to be. i hope its a final decision :|
yeah. im thinking about my future again. i hate iiiit. but its fun. =\
yeah. im bored. bye

my future is a big predicament...

i wish i could see into the future. i wish i could see a bunch of the foreshadows of mah life.
grrrr...

so often i plan my future.
honestly... like first i wanted to be a zoologist
then i wanted to own my own business
then i wanted to be a journalist
then i wanted to be a teacher
then i wanted to be a veterinarian
NOW i wanna be a child psychologist

with that being said, i have my grade 12 courses that i have to think about.
my ideal schedule for grade 12 is this. to have classes in the morning and spares in the afternoon. therefore, i could go to school in the morning for choir, go to class, go to choir at lunch, and then go home or work if i have a job. i got my grade 12 application today. it was pretty exciting cause like now i'm planning on the courses im going to take. luckily with being in extra curricular courses (choir, dance, theater) i have extra credits. this year i've taken up free slots for grade 12 subjects (bio and math). thank goodness those courses will be done and over with. im a bit iffy with taking grade 12 chemistry next year because :
1) grade 11 chemistry was tough enough
2) i do not want carrington again. i want dinisio, BUT with switching teachers things will become so confusing
3) i feel that i do not need it since i wanna be a child psychologist :\

OMGWTFBBQZORS . what am i to doooooooo?

i have a feeling that my schedule next year is gonna be all whack and not fluid like i want it to be. woe is me! haha jk. i dont even know what that line fully means :|.

with my application ... these are the courses that im WILLING to take:

Grade 12 enlgish
Grade 12 english transactional focus
World issues
Psychology
Grade 12 gym
and Choir

i really hope that in june.. ill get to see my guidance counsellor and fix up my schedule. but THEN i hope when it comes the end of august... i wont have SHITTY ass teachers that i dont like.

omgwtfbbqcakecopterzors. -__-"

...

im becoming so exhausted. i need a getaway.

oh hump day.

today is hump day. in other words wednesday. i cannot wait until this week is over.

my day:
-i had jazz choir this morning. singing is fun.
-grade 12 applied math seems so simple, yet so difficult. good thing i have 2 more semesters in my high school career in which i could upgrade my mark
-gym was boring. sitting there and talking about stuff. but the people in my gym class are f.u.n. lol
-didnt have choir at lunch. it took me like fricken 15 minutes to get my lunch. a cream of mushroom soup and a roast beef sandwhich. the cafe is in need of two lines. demolish the current cafe now to make a new working one... in the summer! make it like dmci's. haha
-did work in bio. it was so quiet. very awkward.
-in english we finished medea the movie. and then did a test. i used a lot of big words in that test. i probably failed it. "oh woooe is me". i used that line at least like 5 times today.

current thoughts going into my head:
*cricket *cricket *cricket.

lol. i should be doing my homework actually. so ill end this here. bye

music just is.

when in doubt what do i do? i listen to sweet music to calm me down.
what do i listen to? i pretty much listen to secondhand serenade, mcfly, mayday parade, or meg&dia depending on my mood.

music is the greatest remedy in my life.
its especially the greatest remedy cause i could sing.
singing in an ensemble at school is my life... for now.
making sweet chords with just our voices just makes me mellow.
i love music. music is life. music is me.

it's just to bad that when im older, ill only have music to listen to.
but either way, music is my life.

i've got jazz choir tomorrow morning @ 7:30 in the am. pretty early,
but im pretty committed cause i enjoy singing so much. yessirr.
i have to hit the hay. pc out! and good night!